choices

Difference between wisdom and fullishness?

We all have freedom to do what we want to do.
We may be under the leadership of our parents or whoever else who takes care of us, but essentially they can't really make us do things. It's up to us whether we listen to them or not. So as adults, we do whatever we want. Our bodies crave things, our eyes see what the world thinks is right to do, our ears hear about 'awesome' experiences of others. We listen to influential songs of our century, we read magazines, see size 0 models, have different trend to follow each season, have friends who if not chosen carefully, will have a bad influence on us.
Concluding on this, we live under terrible pressure. We face it every single day of our lives. Can't escape it unless our mindset is opposite to the one speaking to us. What do I mean by this?
I mean that we still have a choice. Whatever people tell us, whatever pressure or expectation we feel that has been put on our shoulders, it is still entirely up to us on whether we will stand up to those expectations, or to our convictions. For example, if I am convicted that I don't have to be size 0, will I starve myself just because the magazines suggest that this is the most attractive size for me to be? I know it's a load of rubbish, don't I? So why follow it?
If every time going into town you feel deep down that getting drunk to the point when you can't remember how on earth you got home is wrong, why drink? Because your friends expect you too? Because its more fun that way? What kind of fun are you talking about? The fun where you can get robbed, hurt, raped or killed?
I could give many examples on how we can stand against what we know is good or bad, but y'all know what I'm talking about.
So let's move on to something way more serious.

CONSEQUENCES.
You may feel good quenching your first for fun. You may be satisfying your body by sleeping around or allowing anyone you're in a relationship with to have your body before they seriously commit to you.
It may feel good to gossip, to be selfish, arrogant or aggressive.
It may feel better to hurt others instead of you getting hurt again.
It may bring you a short lived satisfaction when you take revenge, hold grudge or not forgive.
It may be easier to divorce your spouse rather than work through issues (yes there are exceptions, I'm talking here about people who don't have the excuses of abuse or cheat).
It may be easier to lie than to tell the truth.
It may be easier to accommodate to the expectations of the world than to stand up for your values and convictions.
It may be easier.
But since when does easy means better?

One thing you need to clearly understand before you move on from reading this note.
There will be consequences for the choices you make.
You sow into your life and you will reap the fruit of it. Things that satisfy for a moment are rarely good for you, unless it's food.
Writing this I am not trying to judge you, but rather make you fully aware of the fact that you can change your life before its too late.
Some of the choices you have made or you will make in the near future will chase you for the rest of your life if you don't deal with them properly.
There is no shame in taking responsibility for your life.
Are you imprisoned by trying to be like others? Who do you want to impress?
Who have you not forgiven?
Of what have you not let go?
What pain keeps you awake at night?
What do you miss, really?

I know this is a lot.
But you really need to think through your priorities. I'm writing this to myself as well, don't worry. It's the reason why I got an idea for this note in the first place.

Your life is precious. Don't waste it.
Don't kill your health. Don't make choices and don't walk the paths you will regret picking.
There's more to life than all the rubbish the world is trying to feed us.
All those things are worthless.
Absolutely worthless.

Do yourself a favour and make a decision to do less of something, give something up, let go of something from the past or forgive someone.

Let this be your first step to freedom.

Why not go to church? Give it a go. It may surprise you how much good you could get out of it :)

If you'd like to talk to me, please don't hesitate to message me.

face your heart

'You see, we always have a choice. Even when things seem completely ruined, even when they are ruined, we still have a choice. To lie under those ruins, or make a castle out of them.'

This note is about the simplicity of our hearts and the way we can, and will get through difficulties. 

So, ruins. When things fall apart, when our heart breaks, when troubles keep us awake. 
When your heart is in so much pain, that life and smile and joy sound ridiculous and out of reach. 
My friend, I want to tell you that I have been in that exact place for a long while 5 years ago.
Why write this message now?
Well, because now I grew up to do so. 
Not because from then on my life was trouble free, but because I have gone through so many more and often, more difficult issues, that I have learned to deal with them, get over them in a slow, healthy way and guard my heart while moving on.

Some people say that you just gotta get over things, quickly, drastically, bury all the hurt in order to move on.
I disagree. 
You have to DEAL with hurt before you can either invest into someone else's life, or allow them to invest into yours. Burying hurt will take process in touching to the core of your heart, and in result you will become unforgiving, bitter and simply, destroyed. Even as a Christian, if you are one, you can get to this point. 
This note applies to all of us. I am not writing about one particular kind of hurt. 
Let me put some logic in here.
Let's say someone hurts you really bad by lying to you. You have 3 exits:
1. Not forgive the person and never really move on 
2. Forgive the person but not forgive yourself that you've 'allowed this to happen', which will soon produce bitterness, distrust and not being able to start over with a light heart
3. Forgive the person, forgive yourself, close the doors behind you, move on, have hope for the future, which would lead to a soon healed heart, joy, hope and confidence that even tho you will get hurt again in one way or another, your heart will not grow into bitterness. 

This is how you build castle out of ruins. 
This is how you get over pain.

Call it by name. 

Write down all that hurts you. 
Do not pretend you are okay if you find yourself hurting. Be truth to yourself because you are the only person you're stuck with 24/7. (except for God, but I'm talking someone with you physically). 
I will tell you out of experience that 'being tough' is not the way to protect your heart. Being mean to others is hurting you more than them. Being bitter cuts your heart open each time you choose that negative attitude. Speaking words of death kills you. 

We people are petrified of waiting, of time. Even tho we have NO control over it, we stress, we rush, we run.
We are afraid that if we stop for a moment, if we'd give ourselves time to properly recover from hurts, we're gonna miss on new opportunities.
Hear me now: whatever opportunities you see while you should be recovering, that you take on, will destroy you even more, even if they are good. 
If you break your leg, you can't put a super glue on it and carry on walking.
Same with your heart.
Stop rushing.
Stop fearing that you will never be able to trust again because you WON'T, if you choose to force your heart into another opportunity to crush it into more pieces. 
What meal tastes better? The one from a fast food, or the one slow cooked at home? 
Think about this. 
The root of your heart is the source of your life. 
Everything comes from it.
What will your life consist of if right now all you fill it with is the trash of avoided pain?
You could say it's because dealing with it would hurt all over again, but I tell you now and you better believe me, it will hurt way more 20 years from now when you will finally blow up from the amount of hurt that your heart consists of, with your whole life in ruins, you finding yourself depressed.

'You see, we always have a choice. Even when things seem completely ruined, even when they are ruined, we still have a choice. To lie under those ruins, or make a castle out of them.'

My conclusion is this: you can either use your hurts to harden your heart so you would finally never be able to be free, or you can use those hurts to learn your lesson, forgive the people who caused you pain, and grow into happiness of a healthy protected heart that won't allow itself to be under destructible influences.  

Please, take your time. Respect your heart, because you are the person who should care about it. 
This means that you owe yourself to close some doors, leave some people who are only busy with hurting you, FORGIVE them AND yourself. 
Read Proverbs. 

Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track. Don't assume that you know it all. Run to God! Run from evil! Your body will glow with health, your very bones will vibrate with life! Honor God with everything you own; give him the first and the best. Your barns will burst, your wine vats will brim over. But don't, dear friend, resent God's discipline; don't sulk under his loving correction. It's the child he loves that God corrects; a father's delight is behind all this. (Proverbs 3:5-12 MSG)

Love is

Love is when you commit, when you choose to come into their life, close the door behind you and throw the key away.
Love is when you don't depend on your or their emotions. When you don't let your day push you to doubt your priorities.
It's when you keep going even when you're separated and that separation breaks your heart. You put those broken pieces together. The new glue is the glue of conscience and strong commitment.
Commitment, that you strive to love him/her just as much as Jesus loves the Church.
Love is good.
Love is kind.
Love is fighting for each other, no matter how many obstacles you'd face.
Love is missing them so badly that you could cry yourself to sleep.
Love is talking good about them to other people.
Love is respect, patience, gratitude, laughter, selflessness, sacrifice, time, touch, space, words, silence.
Love is keeping each other accountable.
Love is praying more for them than for yourself.
Love is putting their good first.
Love is taking care of them.
Love is when everything reminds you of them and you can't stop thinking about them, no matter how long you've been together.
Love is going through storms and getting out of them stronger.
Love is continual pursue of their heart and making them fall for you more and more.
Love is knowing them so well you melt them.
Love is knowing their weaknesses and not using them against them.
Love is when you want to give them a piece of your mind but you stand against your pride and instead allow them to learn their lesson, then come to you and admit they were wrong.
Love is learning. Together. Always.
Love is honesty.
Love is an adventure.
Love is warmth.

Love is when you forgive.

/may looking for the right person not discourage you. They are worth the wait and the search.
And when necessary, (always)

Let go and let God.

Limits

Does what you have limit you from wanting more of God?

We constantly want more in life. Clothes, cosmetics, toys, list goes on. We are never going to feel satisfied. There will always be a new need coming up. As we go on with our lives and provoke changes, accommodating for them will require us to change and, of course, to want new sort of things. 

But what about our spirits? What about the needs that come up with changes in our lives? 

Do you feel satisfied in your spirit? Do you feel comfortable with what you have? Would you sacrifice something or go an extra mile in order to get more of God? Hear Him more? Gain more wisdom, or get guidance? The list goes on. 

So what are our limits? Where are the stops that make us go 'hey no, I can't do that, I can't go there. That's too much'. 

Is your desire for God bigger than desire for anything else in your life? 

I'm writing this note because I am asking myself the same questions. 

Especially that we have only entered the new year, I want to take this feeling of freshness and put it into my relationship with Jesus. I want to check my heart and check my motives and make sure that they are right.

And if they are wrong, I want to put my priorities in the right order, I want to change my schedule, I want to say no to some things to get more of time with God. 

So again, what is it that is limiting us and is pulling us away from Jesus? My pastor once told me something that I'm sure I will remember forever: 'if devil can't make you bad, he will make you busy'.

Can you hear the truth of this sentence? If devil can't get you back into the worldly lifestyle, he will make sure to make you busy enough to not give time to God in your daily schedule. 

So I guess the point of my note is to encourage you to just look at your life and see what is it that devil is using to keep you away from Jesus. 

TV? Facebook? Laziness? 

Look at it and maybe make some changes? Even the smallest change will make you feel the difference and you will feel closer to God.

Go on, I'm doing it too :)

Are you selfish?

Seeing broken people breaks my heart. There's so much pain in this world. I strongly believe that we were made to carry each others burdens, to push each other towards Jesus, to make each other smile.
What I also believe is that selfishness is from the devil. I see it as a virus that spreads around. It blinds people, it makes them feel like giving to others with no profit coming back is a waste of time.
I hate it with passion. People go about their business as if the whole world evolved around them. They make others their slaves but they solely believe that they don't owe anything back. Doing something with no strings attached would probably kill them.

Are you THIS kind of person?
Are you selfish?

Children cry on streets.
Widows don't eat for days so their kids would.
Sick are all alone.
Poor are disrespected.

So much.
So much need.
And we are, are living for the pointless, dumb tv program's.
shopping. Food. Gym. Cinema. Party, one after another.

I wish you could feel my heart right now.
I wish you could feel the ache that I feel when I see broken people.

People who could, but never heard the words of hope.

Because you, my dear Christian friend, chose to watch yet another episode of friends.

I want this note to upset you.
I want it to make you mad.
I want it to make you check your motives and get your acts straight if I was right at any point in here.

God put me here to wake the sleepers. If you're asleep, please wake up. There is a message you need to deliver to this world. With love and compassion. With selflessness, cause you ain't gonna get paid for this.

Go and talk to someone. Someone you've just met or someone you've known for years. Hear their pain and give them love. Tell them.

'You see, we always have a choice. Even when things seem completely ruined, even when they are ruined, we still have a choice. To lie under those ruins, or make a castle out of them.'

1 Day Perspective

Today I'd like to share with y'all something I came up with while struggling with overcoming different things, like for example worry. Couple of months ago I've hit a stage where the amount of struggles seemed to squeeze the life out of me. I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders. I thought about coming months and years with trembling. The perspective of YEARS was breaking my heart but only because, well, I couldn't imagine coming years.

And as I was praying about it, and more so, against it, suddenly light came through the darkness of my hardship.

I tend to write things on my wrist when I know for sure this is the only way to make me remember about something really important.

I got up in the morning and as I was giving that day to God, I prayed specifically against complaining. I thought to myself, that if I could only get through today, I could do more days.

So I wrote '1 Day' on my wrist.

I did it so I could concentrate ONLY on today, without worrying about the coming days.

The feeling of freedom that came over my heart was amazing.

Every time I looked at my left wrist I thought to myself: 'only today don't complain. Don't think about tomorrow, just concentrate on fighting for your today'.

On that day not one complaint has left my mouth.

Why am I writing a note about this?
Because I think it is really worth trying out.

We tend to plan things and we really want to look ahead of ourselves.
Sometimes we think so much about the changes we have to make that instead of being motivated to do something about our lives we get freaked out and discouraged.

But what if we thought ONLY about ONE day at a time?

What if we put our mind to that specific day? And the following day, to that day? And the following?...

How much easier would it be, thinking that you have a whole day to improve something in your life?
This would really make you think about the time you have on your hands.
It would make you realize of the multiple chances God is giving you each day.

I'm not saying it would change your life.
I am saying it would change your day.
Try it. :)

my Dear, says Jesus

There is NOTHING as great, as comforting, as heart warming, as life saving, as beautiful, as soft, as quiet, as gentle, as great and tender, as the love of God.


I NEED TO SAY WHAT MY SOUL IS SINGING
I NEED TO SAY WHAT MY HEART IS SCREAMING
(http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=Qj0dxcSIG6M&feature=endscreen)

Nothing will ever satisfy your heart
Nothing will ever bring you peace that LASTS
Nothing will ever help you through troubles
As the love of God would.

Wake up singing your soul into His presence.
Wake up with a thankful heart

A heart that recognizes its sin
A heart that recognizes that HUGE, UN-MEASURABLE, DESPERATE
need
for His presence.

A heart that is known so well by its Maker.
By its Designer.

Why not trust God?
Why not give your life to the ONLY one who loves you so much He DIED so YOU could LIVE?

Why not?

There is so much He has for you.
So much.
To be blessed, not cursed.
To be loved, not hated.
To be forgiven, not punished.

Look! I stand at the door and knock. If you hear my voice and open the door, I will come in, and we will share a meal together as friends. Revelation 3:20

Face your God, talk to Him, pour your heart out to Him.
He will not push you away nor will He remind you of your sins.
Accept His gift of death on the cross and believe that Jesus resurrected.
Give your life to Him.

If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. Romans 10:9

You will be saved.

Jesus says: I love you my Dear.